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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Today. .

I had planned to do soo much. BUT lazyness kicked in once again. I need to step up my game. In school it went pretty fast, mid-term after mid-term. . Sooner or later ima crashhh soo fast!_ Now im cleaning becausein when I see a big mess in my room it causes a supper headache where I feel the heat raises to my head & my ears and eyes feel all the pain! Soo for now I believe I need a table in my room, I realized I have to many books, and they need a special spot.

_ i have tired in focusing in not slacking off, but I don't know what my motivation is anymore. I just wanna focus in school but there isn't a push. . Like for my soul to put effort. But I don't what has been going on with me lately. Im starting to like pain. . But physical pain; I don't know if that healthy. I run track and when im running I feel the pain. With the pain that builds up makes me want to do more and more until I can't take it no more. I like running it frees my mind from all the fear, problems, emotions, it all goes to one zone and put away. I like it. . Im starting to love it. :)

by Ahnjella at 6:57 PM |